Nostalgic Pain

What I do and I know I shouldn't, is to check his Facebook profile almost everyday! I know it looks obsessive and wrong. And it doesn't really help me! You are not a Facebook person. You have some activities, but you don't really change you status or profile photo everyday. In fact, you had the same profile photo since the day I added you.

Last night I went out to several places with this guy I met. Nothing sexual or dating. Just mates, going out and stuff. We went to a few places at soho and then we end up clubbing in Vauxhall. I got really drunk and I didn't though of you for a second. Only this morning when I went to bed, I actually thought that I'm okay, free.. I don't need you. I don't miss you, and I don't care of what you do...

Just a second ago I went to your profile again.
You changed you photo into something that took me back. A photo where you hold something personal I gave you. Something that meant a lot to us. And you send me that photo when I had to be away for a while, telling me that you missed me. Out of all your photos, why this one? Why the one with the thing I gave you? Why the one with the story and the meaning behind it?
Why won't you at least talk to me...

I can't stand this little stupid games. I know it's my fault for checking your profile. Otherwise I wouldn't have seen it. But I can't. I miss you... and I'm jealous.

I went out there. I met people. Can't do anything. I can't see in anyone what I saw in you. Not even the least of excitement. It's been 5 months since you left. I shouldn't be like that!
You moved on to someone new so quickly. Why do you have to bring me back all these memories?

I really want to ask you to remove it. But I don't have the right to. And I want to talk to you, and call you, and see you, hug you... kiss you...

What should I do? Do I ask you that? I can't just forget it. I just can't let you go... I can't pretend that nothing is happening and that photo is just a photo.... I really need guidance. But no one will listen :(