Murmur...

I used to love weekends.

You were always here with me... it was our only free day to spend together in bed until late... wake up together and have a decent breakfast! Then take a walk down town, shop together... spend time with the man I love.

Well now I just don't care...
I don't mind if its Monday or Saturday. Is just the same day to me. Wake up, have coffee, study - work - smoke - dinner - sleep! With all my thoughts to you!

I can't go out any more. I don't have anyone to go out with. My straight friends chill at home with boyfriends and girlfriends. My gay friends met people I don't know... and I never had the chance to meet since I was spending my time with you. Plus they changed their 'clubbing' preferences, which includes things I just don't approve! And I also hate house music!

I dunno... Maybe I'm not the type of guy who goes to a club to get wasted, high or get fucked in a toilet. I don't even like the idea of being in a club just for 'shopping'.

Why is gay life so complicated? Clubs are supposed to be places where you enjoy your night out with good mates, nice drinks, socialise and if you are lucky, flirt! What happened to all these? Or maybe I'm from a different world?

I also go on-line for a chance to meet a normal (and by normal I mean, a simple pairs of jeans and tshirt, a nice haircut and perhaps some tattoos or ear rings) guy, who also enjoys mainstream music, easy to chat with and slowly start a good friendship... But I only get camp boys which I can't hang out with, cos is just not me - my scene, piercings (or tattoos) to every possible and impossible skin area, guys with green/blue/red hair, and macho - drug addicts - muscle men who basically want to shag you anywhere, any time, any position...
I don't mind. I'm not judging styles and attitudes (cos they might think I'm just too simple - dull - boring, etc.)... But I also can't find a .... normal person (if I'm allowed to use these words - don't get me wrong, I hope you know what I mean).

So is just another Friday night... Sitting alone, drinking some wine... and tomorrow is a brand new (yet same old) day! No matter what a calendar calls it!

My world is changing... And I'm still missing you babe!

P.S (I should stop listening to Coldplay... )